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my mood keeps getting worse.i'm over the initial shock of the situation. now it's just a dull ache.scratch that. it's a ROARING FUCKING ACHE.but i am getting more and more angry.. and not at him. just angry about this whole thing and how fucked and ridiculous it is.i miss him horribly and he's starting to seem unreal. everything is fading, and while some would say that should help me, it does not. no, it just makes me angrier and sicker. it's not right. someone you've spent so much time with, and been with, and fucking slept next to, should not feel like a stranger.and i keep waiting for him to contact me, and i dread it at the same time. it's only been a week and a couple days, but it seems like forever, and this is sheer hell.fuck everything.